Manchester, England
paul@borderlinebear.com

The struggle is real! ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿ˜–๐Ÿ˜ญ

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The struggle is real! ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿ˜–๐Ÿ˜ญ

It’s been a while since I last posted but man have I struggled the last few weeks!

My emotions have been so varied over the past three weeks I cannot start to tell you the trouble and heartache I’ve felt.

A massive part of my life is work and being an IT manager responsible for a team has been such a challenge. The anxiety that has rattled my bones these last few weeks has been unbearable…..I literally don’t know how I’ve kept going….but I have.

I’m not really sure what kicked it off, but I just started to feel really down and anxious and basically like I didn’t want to know. I started to over spend, over eat and literally went into sabotage mode. I would obsess over stupid things like “what’s for tea” and “who did what” and just cause general trouble.

It was my birthday the other day and it felt like the biggest anti-climax ever, I felt low and pretty lonely my partner arranged a meal and I just felt different at the meal ….so uncomfortable.

I suppose this post is pretty sketchy but I do feel like I’m coming out of the other side so I’ll do another post in a few days hopefully with more meaning!

Feel free to post your responses below, hearing from my friends and battlers would be great right now!

Stay safe

~Paul~

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