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The biggest challenge yet! ๐Ÿ‘Š

So look, I’ll be honest my weight has always been a nightmare! I feel like Herman Klump were all I have to do is eat a chip and my arse blows up!!! So I was originally 25stone and thank go my weight is down, but I’m still a far distance away from goal weight of…
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Nothing left to prove ๐Ÿ™

So look, this is probably one of the most important posts I’ve ever written , it is probably the most tranquil I’ve ever felt and I truly believe I have nothing left to prove, to myself or my doubters! I have just been promoted to pretty much senior management, to think…5 years ago I was…
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Berlin – Germany ๐Ÿ‡ฉ๐Ÿ‡ช

So an opportunity came up for me to travel to Germany (Berlin) on business ( I know, 5 years ago I had nothing now I’m travelling the world!๐Ÿคฃ) I’m not interested in travel to be honest, it intimidates me, it’s makes me uncomfortable , I miss my family and my ‘safe zone’. Thats why I…
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We ranked in the top 10 UK blog sites for BPD ๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ง

So I woke up this morning to a notification that we have been ranked one of the top 10 UK blog sites for BPD in the country!!! This overwhelmed me in every way possible, I started this blog as a therupatic way to express my feelings and manage my condition hoping that those snippets of…
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The struggle is real! ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿ˜–๐Ÿ˜ญ

It’s been a while since I last posted but man have I struggled the last few weeks! My emotions have been so varied over the past three weeks I cannot start to tell you the trouble and heartache I’ve felt. A massive part of my life is work and being an IT manager responsible for…
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Amsterdam ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ‡ฑ

Immediately I know what your thinking!!!! Why would a recovering addict who doesn’t smoke or drink go to the city if sin! Well let me tell you it’s an absolutely beautiful city!!! The food is like nothing you’ve ever tasted! Cooked to perfection and as fresh as it could possibly be. The street entertainment and…
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Hell is real ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ the underground

Wow, when I hear the words “London underground” it makes me think of an old song….”going undergrounddd ๐ŸŽต๐ŸŽถ”. Let me tell you the actual underground isn’t as uplifting as that song….It’s actually a very depressing, murky and dull experience. I don’t think I have ever experienced anything like it before to be honest, starting with…
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Gambling – Replace one addiction for another?

Hi my friends, battlers and survivors! I hope Monday finds you well. Ok, so I wanted to talk about addiction, and my personal battle with Gambling! So when I stopped drinking and taking cocaine I found myself having a ‘flutter’ here and there. This steadily became as a massive problem for me. Somewhere along my…
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Mother day! ๐Ÿ’”

So for those of you who have read my story (relapse – a relationship lost) you’ll have read how I haven’t seen my mum for about 4 years now. This brings me on to the challenges I’ve faced today and how I have dealt with the day. Firstly, I love my mum. She is a…
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Anxiety – Public places!!!!

So I am currently sat in Euston train station surrounded by what feels like a million people. It’s really difficult to get over the feelings of anxiety and right now it almost feels suffocating! I have a bad phobia of germs and the thought of people physically breathing near me makes me feel intoxicated. So…
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